看破了。。。

On the spiritual side: I am a work in progress. I try to live life in simple terms, treat people with respect and kindness and it will be returned. Most of my childhood was spent living to please others, lying to get other peoples approval and acceptance. I lived most of my pre-adult days and years (before 21 yeas old) after stpm studies in addiction trying to please others and pretend life was good by socializing, working and using. I have since started a new path with life (sober recently), one that includes self respect and listening to my inner voice. I past no judgments with people who drink, party and hookup, I have just chosen to u- turn a different route since that road was a dead end. I live life to the fullest now, taking time to smile and actually make genuine conversation with others.
In friends: I am drawn to people who respect themselves and are driven. I look for friends that believe in something religion wise, not saying Christianity, but something like their own imagination. People who give back, caretakers, and make time for family as well as their friends I tend to adore. I have a sadistic dark humor streak and enjoy it in others as well. Like people who are comfortable in silence and do not feel words have to be spoken every few seconds..being in peoples presence is just as rewarding as being engulfed in conversation.
If you can make me laugh, we'll be off on the right foot. If I can make you laugh, then you're in a bad mind-set, not that there's anything wrong with being bad!?