congratulation...

u came back to kl from Australia and inform me that u stay in cititel hotel...i am so glad to hear that..coz long time do not notice u since u leave kl inform me that u are going to pursuit biotech degree from there...

as normal,since i have car..bring u go to have a drink..thanks for ur beer...i have to admit that..i feel more better while chatting with u compare to my other frend..a warming sense surrounded myheart...nothing to be ashamed of..no need to filtered whatever i had spoken from my mouth..the freedom...i can say..i much much appreciate this kind of feeling that coz of u ,i had feel it..and obtain it..
eh...those misunderstand my motive,i am not a gay man...i am a bit touching coz this fren...is very special to me...we had undergone a lot of so called bad for us is consider ok lah..wont reveal from here..then,i feel glad and surprised that..he inform me he is going to be a father...for heaven`s sake!unbelievable man...wont reveal anything from here but actially he is damn lucky then i can say..with this age,just graduate from australia,is going to obtain pr frm there...and this..THIS!REALLY CHANGE MY MIND..this is the life i wish to have in the future...the next day,went to kl centre to fetch ah sou...haha..bring them to eat breakfast in pj area..luckily they appreciate the food..if not,i ll blame myself...as a kl ppl...fail to satisfied their appetide...then bring them back tohotel forcheck in...blah blah..blah,..
the next next day again..meet them for dinner aft my training in pantai medical hospital..notice them so loving..i feel v happy and in the sametime..i envy too..who dun envy..u have a woman willng to give bitrth a baby to u...and is nice,kind heart,down to earth somemore..then,we dined in kiku zakura..luckily the si tau po allow to charge me for free for the VIP room but again...my frend treat me for this dinner..haha...thanks alot man!
i might plan to go melbourne to visit u aft i graduate lah..ALL THE BEST AND BLESS TO UR BABY...

WHAT`S WRONG WITH U!

Sometime I feel very bad for myself as I did something that is breaking the brotherhood rule…which is betray my brother just for quench my revenging thought…

To being selfish..Revengeful..yeah I am, but why do I involve myself in such indolence behavior…as what I had said..u are the fellow who began with it…it is nothing that will happen if u dun provoke a person …for ur reason..blaming me for my own good but I feel very depress when receive ur lecturing…sick with it..fedup with it…but what to do…hate u? yes…I am but self control overwhelming my evil rhythm.. but as it accumulate in little by little…it will burst at..which is a powerful explosion…but, the thing is..i dun dare to do..kill u?i can if I want… accidentally murder….who knows.?

It is not the 1st time u try to snatching my happiness. as a brother..u should give encouragement but u seem like…aiz..wat`s wrong with u!？why u will have such evil thought liking a person die or suffer or become sad, become very worst then u baru can feel satisfied with it…I just duno why..

U told me that U hate ppl more intelligent than u,but is that any wrong or harm u when that fellow more powerful than u….and the things is why u try to be so meant to me..

U have been very meant to me…as a brother…u should care about me more than everyone…unless u dun treat me as brother..there are many example…but it is silly I still become ur brother…maybe I was born with the congenital….u know wat..I believe that..i cant change ur character…for I am talented in judging hypocritism…ur percentage is meet 85%...well..nothing much to say…
Then , i dunno why that u keep saying that my point is not related with it..and u take my word too seriously…as u take other just is different from how u facing with me…if u feel my conversation is feel burden to u..it is my pleasure that we wont talk and it is better u leave me alone..i dunno..u are much different with everyone I had meet in my life…aiz..just bottom-line is..u treat me unfair! Totally unfair!

Just dun try to be so meant to ur brother…if u insist…there are nothing much to say…pls reckon what u had done…always remember there are a limit for everything…yeah…a limit for everything…pls dun force me to become the wicked jerk! Coz u might be very regretful for implant this evil seed and u need to pay for it…dude!

看破了。。。

On the spiritual side: I am a work in progress. I try to live life in simple terms, treat people with respect and kindness and it will be returned. Most of my childhood was spent living to please others, lying to get other peoples approval and acceptance. I lived most of my pre-adult days and years (before 21 yeas old) after stpm studies in addiction trying to please others and pretend life was good by socializing, working and using. I have since started a new path with life (sober recently), one that includes self respect and listening to my inner voice. I past no judgments with people who drink, party and hookup, I have just chosen to u- turn a different route since that road was a dead end. I live life to the fullest now, taking time to smile and actually make genuine conversation with others.
In friends: I am drawn to people who respect themselves and are driven. I look for friends that believe in something religion wise, not saying Christianity, but something like their own imagination. People who give back, caretakers, and make time for family as well as their friends I tend to adore. I have a sadistic dark humor streak and enjoy it in others as well. Like people who are comfortable in silence and do not feel words have to be spoken every few seconds..being in peoples presence is just as rewarding as being engulfed in conversation.
If you can make me laugh, we'll be off on the right foot. If I can make you laugh, then you're in a bad mind-set, not that there's anything wrong with being bad!?

Why am i attracted to a gal i know is not good?

THIS IS BECAUSE U ARE HOPING U ARE WRONG AND EVERTIME SHE DOES SOMETHING THAT TELLS U SHE IS NOT GOOD, U IGNORE IT. AND EVERYTIME SHE COMES THROUGH AND SUPRISED U, AND U LOST THAT ARGUMENT WITH URSELF AND THAT IS NOT FOR U!