wat had i done!

Donno how to say…recently really damn down…depression had overwhelmed my entire heart and lead me to elsewhere…to blame someone else and frm the process …realize the power of tongue..really make me inevitable to admit that the truth…I am so down…feel guilty that ruin the friendship among my frens…due to my kei po…I had killed a wonderful friendship….wat had happened to me?i dunno…why I so silly…why I so ego…to show off that I know something..i am not meant it…not purposely to speak out ones…I am losing my mind ..i could only blame my mind since it is the cpu from my body….
How to say, I like to be frend with u…but it is wat I called the relationship had exceed the best frend category which are wat we man called brother… so,whatever u have any problem..i sure ll support u..however, there are so many thing that we need to mix together while we doing a task. It wont be so nice that all is in our prediction..there sure have fall and rise in our life…
I just know…I had never had this kind of feeling…I wont bother anyone how they feel upset…but the only thing I care is ur feeling…is proven tat if brother no happy…I also wnt be happy….and notice I feel down…hardly to recover back..luckily the effective medicine is coming soon…to solve my problem…he is coming back kl from uk…my best brother…in st co…hopefully he ll give me some hope that able to eliminate those depression from my heart…upgrate to brain..
I really scare I had done something wrong and provoke u..hated by u…able to make my life worst….unless..my st co brother all gather together to give me support…I might wont be so sad yet…ah! I just this thing will be slowly be forgetten and hoping no one able to ruin something that able to make me feel uncomfortable ……
The bottom line is…there is no fun at all to become secret keeper….if u understand wat I had written above…congrate..u are super genious…if u can feel it..and u are a gal…single…haha..jsut give me a call…0122137683…at least u try…I wont disappointed u ones…believe me!